I can no longer remember when exactly Jeff and I have decided to leave the military.
We have had discussions about this important issue numerous times. Earlier this year he was very closed to re-enlisting for another three years. We weighed the pros and cons and ended up with more cons on the list.
Fast forward to last night. Here is my soldier answering some worksheets as part of the class he is attending on the transition process from military to civilian life.
I feel sad whenever I think of the day when we have to leave. The Army, not so much. Germany, yes.
This country has been our home for over four years. Our daughters were both born here. We were able to travel to some countries - France, Poland, Czech Republic, Spain, Italy and Austria - that we would never have the chance to go to had it not been for the Army. There are so many things I will miss here in Germany. Yes, including the good friends we would have to leave behind.
But for whatever it's worth, I am very happy of our decision to leave. Although we only had one year long deployment, I cannot imagine going through another one. Especially now that we have two kids. Don't get me wrong. I can handle taking care of the girls by myself. It is the emotional and mental stress of knowing that my soldier is in constant danger that will eat me up.
I guess I'm just not tough enough. Or come to think of it. Maybe Jeff and I believe there is more to life than staying in the military.
We all have choices. Jeff and I have chosen ours.